Sweat is Fat Crying: Journey back to fitness (weeks 1-10)
Week 10
Week 10 is complete and I'm half way into week 11. Before I let another week slip by here is my update...
I know that I hate doing burpees and I can't think of anything that I like doing except stretching and the feeling of completion after my workouts are over. And, after working with a trainer for the past 10 weeks, I admit that I am not as self motivated as I would like to be. So, I took the easy route and jumped on the treadmill and planned a for 4 mile stretch.
10 minutes later Corey comes in and stands beside me while I'm on the treadmill. He asked me how long I had been on and I smiled pointed to the monitor like a child as if to say, "Look daddy I'm working out all by myself".
He didn't seem phased. "Great, now I have something else for you".
I was not excited but I jumped off the treadmill as he walked me to the back door.
"We're going outside!" I exclaimed. It was my first time outside of the gym. Then, I got excited.
I was a child again!
He looked at me and said, "Yes Trimble we are going outside!"
He walked me to a tire laying in the parking lot. It was huge! When he gave me instructions on what he wanted me to do, I had no idea what I was being called to do. After all, I was still celebrating being outside.
I followed his lead and with my knees bent in squat position I grabbed underneath the tire and attempted to lift. Reality suddenly hit me. I felt defeated. I looked at him and I could fee the heaviness come across me as I said, "Cory, I can't flip it. It is too heavy".
He looked at me and said, "Yes, you can!"
I was not at all convinced and so he offered to flip it with me. He got on one side and I on the other. At least I saw that it could be done. Then, he said, "Now you do it!"
With tears growing inside (I knew that the day the tears would be back), I managed to get my first flip in, then another, then another, then another, across the parking lot. Then, he told me he wanted me to repeat it 4 more times (at least 20 flips or 2 rotations across the parking lot).
The workout continued in the gym and by the time I was complete, it may have been the first time I didn't speak to Corey on my way out. I had grown from a child to a pissed off teenager who had no words!
Tuesday came and he had me on the tires again...
Well, another week has gone by and yesterday, as I completed another flipping tires workout, one quote just stuck out in my mind...
"You never know how strong you are, until being strong is your only choice."
I am- You are- We are- stronger than we think! I have the feeling that all of this is preparing me for something...
With Joy,
Shawn
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| Tuesday, Week 11 |
Week 8-9
Shawn M Trimble
After watching this video this week, I realized that unconsciously I used the 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 blast off method of courageously moving into the unknown.
I am proud of me!
And, the good news is that I am still at it!
I was having so much fun in the gym I didn't realize I had missed a week of sharing (pure sarcasm)!Here is a look at how my body is shaping up:
5-2-17
Fat %- 43.3
Fat Weight-94lbs
BMI- 36.3
Waist-35
7-4-17
Fat %-36.9
Fat Weight-75lbs
BMI-33.6
Waist-30
Weight Loss: 17lbs
Goal Weigh Loss: 50lbs
Week 7
Original post on FB on June 25, 6:08pm
June 25 at 6:08pm
#week7
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Me in the airport
Me in New Orleans
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This week was bittersweet! I went to New Orleans and was away from he gym for an entire week! (Tomorrow is going to hurt!)
I had a ball and ate all of my favorite foods. Of course I had high hopes of working in more workouts while I was here, but I only managed to get in one good day!
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I did manage to run into my 69 year old vegan mother, D'Ayanna Hicks, and I was able to capture her doing her workouts. Go Mama!!!
Be inspired!
With Joy,
Me
Week 6
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| Shawn Trimble |
Original post on FB on June 11, 10:46am
June 11 at 10:46am ·Giving credit where credit is do, I must give a shout out to Corey Alston! There are so many stories that I can share about this man and how he's pushed me to do things that I never thought that I could. He has been a tough personal trainer but he sees through my tears and holds the vision for me when I just want to drop it and run. Thank you Corey Anytime Fitness Brier Creek
Giving more credit where credit is do, is that though I am not on a diet, I am quite mindful of what goes in my body. (When I was younger, I use to workout to eat what I wanted. Today, not so much!)
To help boost my metabolism and release some toxic build up, 6 weeks ago I started a 30 day cleanse with Isagenix. 6 weeks later, I still find myself using the products. It's been an effective nutrition system that I can attest to. Simran Singh thank you!
I know that the cleanse supported me on this journey and if you wish to learn more don't hesitate to reach out! You don't have to do it alone...
And last, I ran across another video that not only motivated me this week, but inspired me to join another movement- GirlTrek in Durham, NC It's powerful! Check it out! And share it with other black women who may need the reminder!
https://www.facebook.com/HealthyBlackWomenandGirls/posts/1341123802630887:0
With Love,
Me
Week 5
Original post on FB on June 4, 8:28am
June 4 at 8:28am
End of week 5...
Monday was a holiday but I still got up and worked out. I know there has been a shift in my mind and my body.
Besides being focused on my goals, I am also aware that moving through past behaviors and the tricks of the ego to slack off is crucial. So is connecting with how painful it can be to start over if I stop now.
It is also crucial for me to be present and pay attention to the many signs and lessons along the way.
On Tuesday my trainer had me get on the elliptical. I shrugged as usual but obliged and hopped on watching him set the machine to the desired setting. (He usually sets it to some hill on level 10 for 2 miles.)
Until I get warmed up, I never know how in going to make it a half mile let alone two, but somehow I do. This time there was a misunderstanding and when I got to mile two I started my slow down. Corey saw me slowing down and walked over and said, "I wanted four miles today!"
Sweat was pouring from body and like a teenager with attitude, there were so many not so nice things that were going off in my head and though I didn't say it, "Fuck no" was one of them.
Instead I looked at him with desperation in my eyes and I said, "How about I go for a walk around the block instead?"
It seemed like a reasonable gesture. Corey didn't think so. He looked me in my eyes and said, "you can hop off and I'll see you tomorrow..."
I was perplexed and didn't understand at first his sarcasm and so he repeated it again, "You can hop off and I'll see you tomorrow."
I then started to understand the choice he was offering. I didn't like it so I didn't move.
Then he said, "Look Shawn, you've been doing it your way...now it's time to try another way- my way!"
It was as if God was speaking directly to me through him. I got it!
I shrugged again, but I let him reset the machine, and I did another mile before he let me go.
Celebrating the little things, I have not missed a work out in five weeks. I have been committed to my four day per week routine.
My commitment to myself and Self Care is my new activism.
June 4 at 8:28am
End of week 5...
Monday was a holiday but I still got up and worked out. I know there has been a shift in my mind and my body.
Besides being focused on my goals, I am also aware that moving through past behaviors and the tricks of the ego to slack off is crucial. So is connecting with how painful it can be to start over if I stop now.
It is also crucial for me to be present and pay attention to the many signs and lessons along the way.
On Tuesday my trainer had me get on the elliptical. I shrugged as usual but obliged and hopped on watching him set the machine to the desired setting. (He usually sets it to some hill on level 10 for 2 miles.)
Until I get warmed up, I never know how in going to make it a half mile let alone two, but somehow I do. This time there was a misunderstanding and when I got to mile two I started my slow down. Corey saw me slowing down and walked over and said, "I wanted four miles today!"
Sweat was pouring from body and like a teenager with attitude, there were so many not so nice things that were going off in my head and though I didn't say it, "Fuck no" was one of them.
Instead I looked at him with desperation in my eyes and I said, "How about I go for a walk around the block instead?"
It seemed like a reasonable gesture. Corey didn't think so. He looked me in my eyes and said, "you can hop off and I'll see you tomorrow..."
I was perplexed and didn't understand at first his sarcasm and so he repeated it again, "You can hop off and I'll see you tomorrow."
I then started to understand the choice he was offering. I didn't like it so I didn't move.
Then he said, "Look Shawn, you've been doing it your way...now it's time to try another way- my way!"
It was as if God was speaking directly to me through him. I got it!
I shrugged again, but I let him reset the machine, and I did another mile before he let me go.
Celebrating the little things, I have not missed a work out in five weeks. I have been committed to my four day per week routine.
My commitment to myself and Self Care is my new activism.
A few times within this five week period, I've even slipped in a non workout day. Bike riding a few weeks ago was one of one them. Yesterday, walking in my favorite park was another.
I had such a great time with my daughter and the girls. I got my walk in lol!
I shared with them what I had journaled about before taking our walk:
Wherever I am- God is- and all is well.
Wherever I am- God is- and all is well!
Wherever I am- God is- and all is well!
I am well!
With Love,
Me
(Read about my journey here: http://www.iamfreedomsdrum.com/…/sweat-is-fat-crying-journe…)
Week 4
Original post on FB on May 27, 3:34pm
4 weeks ago I embarked on a new journey that I quickly turned into a 16 week fitness challenge. Today I celebrate my first 10lb release! Yes, I can see my abs again!
It has been a journey yet in many ways I'm just getting started! In his Warrior video, Eric Thomas says that "...when you get to the point where enough is enough; when you get to the point where it hurts real bad; when you get to the point where you can't take it no more; when you get to that point- doors start opening- opportunities start happening...but what you can not do is give up! Champions keep going..." (https://youtu.be/CMm6tDavSXg @ Eric Thomas)
Here are my 10 lessons from the 10 pounds:
1. The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step- take it!
2. Regardless of how cloudy things appear- Follow the Sun! Hold on to your vision!
3. It's ok to cry! Pain either hurts you or changes you- you get to decide which one!
4. Don't be afraid to set a goal and have the courage to commit to the process. You can't ask someone to commit to you if you aren't willing to commit to yourself.
5. Change is not always an overnight process. Remember that what you can't see under the surface is bigger than what you can see! Don't give up!
6. Being challenged and being uncomfortable can be beautiful gifts! They stretch us beyond our own made up limitations and allow us to see our strengths and our ability to make the adjustments necessary.
7. Ask for help! What a blessing it is to not only receive support but to be a blessing to those who want to give it. The exchange can be miraculous.
8. Invest in yourself! You are the most important person in your life! I deserve- you deserve- we deserve to give ourselves what we've given so freely to others. Remember that material wealth is nothing without personal health. "How you gonna win when you ain't right within?"
9. It may hurt to discover that some people are not your friends. Pay attention to the people who support you. Let go of the ones who don't...they are dead weight! Find your tribe and Go where the love is...
10. Accountability is golden! Record your progress - and celebrate the little things along the way!
Thank you for sharing this journey...
With Love,
Me
With Love,
Me
***Ps -inbox me if you want me to connect you with the trainer that o am using and/or a nutritious cleanse that also supported me with my metabolism and releasing toxins from my body.
Week 3
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| Shawn Trimble |
The end of week 3! Celebrating the small things...and I didn't cry in my workouts this week! I even took my bike out and went for a ride. Yay! There is something going on beneath the surface of it all and pushing through the pain and the tears is part of the process of growth and development. On the other side of fear...on the other side of the cracking shell...on the other side of the seed that breaks through the darkness and the dirt...is something magical! I am fierce! Even in those moments of weakness. I am powerful beyond measure! Even when I don't feel it (or feel like working out). Wherever you are in this journey called life, know that you are love(d). Be encouraged! Week 2
Original post on FB on May 14 @10:36pm
Today was a phenomenal day! Motherhood is a gift! Children are gifts! And, everyday is a gift!
Today also marked the beginning of what will be my third week of fitness training. Week two complete!
I would love to say that week two was better than week one, but in truth it wasn't! Though I wasn't as sore, I cried after class on Monday, I was giving evil looks on Tuesday, and after my first introduction to burpees on Wednesday, I thought I was going to pass out! Not only did I cry during and after my workout, then I cried some more when I got home. I'm not even ashamed to admit that it was also the day I almost quit! But I didn't! I showed up again on Thursday and it was the first day I didn't cry!
I've always exercised on my terms within my level of comfort. Being in a gym was never my thing but Physical activity never scared me!
Over the last few years I got caught up in the busyness of life and relationships and I turned away from me and let myself go. I stopped working out and when I did get physical it was hit or miss. I was losing the self motivation I once had and I was watching myself spiral out. Last summer I went to the doctor and I would have preferred him give me some magic pill when he saw the weight I had gained but instead he just looked at me and said, "So what are you going to do?"
So what did I do? I ate more and gained even more weight. Lol Was it my last hoo-ra with this dance? It could have been, because everything changed this year.
I had always wanted to challenge myself to see what my body could do and this month I just woke up one day and decided to give myself the gift of self love and appreciation. I didn't like carrying the extra weight and I refused to let another season pass me by.
Working with a good fitness trainer is much like working with a spiritual life coach. Both are committed to helping you win and archive your goals. And regardless of what excuses you come up with, they ain't trying to hear it!
I'm also doing a 30 day cleanse that I started with my training. It was perfect timing and I am enjoying the energy that I feel!
Today I went to work, planted flowers, worked in the yard, cut grass, and washed my dog just to name a few of the activities that I had the energy to do. I even had the urge to workout on my days off...
If you are interested in connecting with the trainer or learning more about this fabulous system I've embarked on, let me know. (I'm not selling it but I can certainly stand behind it and even get you started.)
Week 3 starts tomorrow! All good juju and words of encouragement appreciated. Thank you for being witnesses and the accountability partners that I need.
With love,
Me
Week 1
Original post on FB on May 7@ 9:31am
"Change will come when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change!"
Two weeks ago I asked for help to find a personal trainer. I am grateful to everyone who responded to my request! Out of those requests, I received several life changing connections.
On Tuesday, I showed up for my first training session! The trainer, Cory Alston, and I had a conversation about my goals and my level of commitment. I revealed my weight, he recorded my measurements, and calculated my BMI. The fat that I am carrying is not my best!
By the time workout session was over, I was in tears! Stretched beyond all the limits I had ever placed on what I could do. Then I cried again when I got home! My word is my bond...what had I gotten myself into?
By day three I was so sore, (and still am), but I pushed through it! He showed me no mercy and only told me that next week is when we get started!
Everything happened with synchronicity! The other response I received was from another beloved Light who saw my post. She lovingly shared information about a nutrition system that would change my body's composition. After doing my own research, we had a golden conversation! I said, "Yes"! OMG
The transformation taking place is unbelievable! Another prayer answered! "Change will come when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change!"
Every area of my life is undergoing a shift! Adjustments must be made and so I allow the tears to flow....
Thank you to everyone who has shown up with words of encouragement and for holding my hand as I release the things, the people, the appetite, the weight, and the FAT that no longer serves me!
Wherever you are on your journey, know that you have everything you need within you! And everything you want is on the other side of fear. Be courageous!
With Love,
Shawn
The Big Ask...
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| Shawn Trimble |
Original post on FB on April 26
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